To be honest, I actually haven't breast fed at all.
I do, however, lactate. That's why I wanted to join breastfeeding in the first place-- to get information on my breasts and hear suggestions on what I should do with them.
I hope that my experiences prove to be valuable ones, since my route to having breast milk was not conventional and required a bit of screwing around with my body's chemistry.
That said, I'm probably one of the least experienced people here when it comes to actually having breast milk-- not to mention breastfeeding-- because I've only been lactating for a little under a month.
But I do plan on adopting some time in the next year or two (if I can find an agency who will let me adopt; I am aware that there are quite a few which don't take kindly to queers) and breastfeeding if my adopted child is of the appropriate age to do so.
However, to be honest, I am in fact interested in lactation beyond feeding babies, as has been suggested elsewhere.
I think that lactation is beautiful.
Occasionally and in some circumstances, beautiful in the same way that other parts and functions of the body of the person or bodies of people who you are attracted to.
I don't think that there is really a way for me to try to explain it without sounding like I'm trying to cover it up or rationalize it away out of shame; that is just how I feel.
However, that does not extend to breastfeeding. THE BABIES DO NOTHING D:
I am not, in spite of what at least one person has suggested, a pedophile, thnx.
And I did not create this community so that I could oggle other people's stories, questions, and information; that's creepy and exploitative.
The fact that I think lactation is beautiful is not why I wanted to join breastfeeding. I wanted to join there because they have a sort of monopoly on active LJ communities which deal primarily with breast milk.
And my rejection from that community isn't the only reason I wanted to start this one. Not only is breastfeeding, from what I've read, more a political soapbox than a place for support where people are ridiculed for not toeing their line, it's also runs very much contrary to the notion that women's bodies belong to them and not to someone else-- in this case, babies. As lakinicoyote has said in her post, women's bodies don't exist for the sole purpose of creating and caring for babies. If someone is unhappy with only breastfeeding and wants to learn about alternatives for whatever reason (not enough time, physical pain, emotional discomfort, milk supply not being high enough, and so forth) they should not have to defend their right to be a parent to a bunch of vicious asshats on the internet.
And, again as lakinicoyote has implied, one's tits do not stop being erogenous zones and turn into feedbags once you start lactating, and you should be able to talk about situations with your partner or whomever as they pertain to your boobs without someone jumping down your throat.
That said, to be honest, the most "inappropriate" I've done with my boobies since they've started producing milk is to squirt milk out of them for like ten or fifteen minutes and giggle.
Would you be comfortable with my remaining a mod?
Additional thoughts, further explanations, and other comments?
Please note that I am going to be the only one who can see your responses to this poll and that I won't hold a grudge.
Also, even if it looks like one answer is in the lead, I will take into account whether or not people are my LJ friends, and if it looks like most of the people who are saying "yes" are on my f-list and most of the people saying "no" are not, I will definitely take that into consideration with respect to de-modding myself.